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The thoughts of the mad.

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Im done with rhymes for just today i dont need them to tell you how i feel i know for a fact this is all i have so please tell me it wont fade its all i know and its all i need and everyone threatens it so. It is scared and so am i.
Im so afraid that i might seek to go into my old past life
where self destructions my only friend and i will lose that single strand that holds the fabric of my soul and wont let it fall from the cliff i've built with my mistakes and my regrets and i will plummet into my demise by my own hand if you leave this i swear this is no threat you shalln't be compelled to bother with someone like me im just a bother it never mattered but please pretend to care because i feel as if i dont and someone needs to love me because in this god awful world all alone is all we are and mockingbirds sing while corrupt people live pure lives and laugh at my mirror just as i do because they realize something i do not, im still alive how can i know this when you could leave and it tears me up inside because i felt so alone in that head full of screaming that i know for sure i was counting days till i met mr. reaper and hed take me away and id never have to live in this wonderful illusion but i find myself so sorry to go because i could never leave the only things that keep me happy although its mostly you and i will stare at the sky and into your eyes and as you look back i hope you wont notice the cracks in my pupil as my control breaks because i love you dear and if you noticed youd know im not pefect anymore and leave like the rest because for some reason people seem to think that just because i can take some things that and lodged in these desolate thoughts and clack some fingers on some keys to tell you this pathetic life and its feelings that long for readers and people to hear and for more to care so that maybe if they do i finaly could to and even though i have been so betrayed and stabbed and pulled and pushed around i love the attention and it makes me ok because atleast i know im still here and maybe for once when i look at my face i wont see breaks and cracks and tears and i know for a fact they're not there otherwise the strange looks i get would be attached with gasps of horror as they realize that we both know im as fucked up as they though and now that i have released the contents of my broken mind unto your eyes so that you may taste the sadness and pity that people do when they read for pathetic me and dear just so you know i do still love you i always have and always will and im am only human still so to me these words and these thoughts take no time nor and technique or hope or searching because all i ever wanted was love so understand these are my thoughts and that yes,
I am crazy love :)
needed to unload how i feel otherwise i would\'ve cried.
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TheRubyAlchemist's avatar
:hug: You're not crazy, you're normal. Life's a bitch, you'd be crazy NOT to feel like this :huggle: